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Strengths & Weaknesses

Thursday, October 31st, 2013

Kiki and ABR800 ring flash with moon unit
A wise person once told me that the most productive and creative people on the planet journal consistently. I keep a black journal on me at all times (well, almost). A lot more ideas go into it than I share publicly, but still I have not felt creative lately. Despite being someone whom creates constantly, I have felt productive  but not creative.

One thing I HAVE done lately is acquire some camera equipment that I’ve been thinking about getting for years and years. One such item is a 56″ moon unit reflector soft box to use with my trusted ABR800 ringflash light. This off-camera tool with allow me to do more fancy lighting with more consistency and control. I’m still not crazy about artificial lighting but it’s nice to have when you’re looking to book a larger variety of gigs.

Some people say “don’t show weakness”. I don’t know if I’m into that. I always feel much more human when I just show you my cards.

I struggle with comparing myself to others, both in positive and negative ways. Todd Roeth is always five steps ahead of me in the most endearing way and I owe a huge part of who I am to the possibilities that he’s shown me just by living his life with intense purpose. Both Nessa K and Nadine Latief have created booming photography businesses (far more successful than mine in many ways), yet I still remember meeting with them to talk about camera stuff as they were getting started. Noël Wells has made her way to Saturday Night Live, and I remember sitting in the same improv workshop as her. All these people have really taken off with their careers and creativity and sometimes I wonder if I’m not asking enough of myself. This is a bizarre feeling because I don’t necessarily want the same lives that these folks have achieved. I have a lot of interests and I pursue all of them equally. Every since I was thirteen, I have asked myself: Is it better to pour all your passion into one focus, or do all the stuff you want at the same time. I can’t say I’m not jealous of other people sometimes. But I can say that I’m extremely excited for these people. I just sometimes forget that I’m uber-lucky too and constantly asking the question “am I doing what I want?”.

This post doesn’t have a strong focus. I’m completely fine with that. I feel much better for writing it.


First Photo of 2013 & Goals

Saturday, January 5th, 2013

First photo of 2013

Firstly, some amazing things have just happened to me. One hundred and one extraordinarily nice people people combined monetary powers to pay for over half of my new Canon 5d, mkiii. Above is a photo from the first session taken with the new camera. I’m overwhelmingly touched. I’m in the process of making a cute “Thank You” video. I want to thank everyone personally and show them how much I appreciate this gesture.

Secondly, I have decided to lay out some goals for the new year. 2012 sprinted by but I managed to at least start a lot of projects I’ve had in mind. Here are a few highlights of those:

  • My directorial debut of  Manhattan Stories far exceeded my expectations in vision and reception.
  • I enrolled at new improv institutions (new for me), namely ColdTowne Theater and the experience has been invaluable
  • I have seriously begun digging into learning Spanish, mostly vocabulary, in preparation for my March trip to Spain
  • Squirrel Buddies, my improv duo with Roy Janik, was accepted to the Alaska Improv Festival and will perform in April, 2013
  • Other notable experiences: Process (Hideout Theatre), multiple performances at the Out of Bounds Comedy Festival in Austin, visiting Ohio, teaching new improv classes every other month, swimming lessons, roadtrip to see wildflowers, wrecking my scooter and fracturing my elbow!
And so I challenge myself to the following for 2013!
  • Publishing photography in regionally or nationally known publications
  • An exhibit of new photography works, of my own conception , not just a collection of photos from the past
  • Feeling confident in my ability to speak Spanish while in Spain, this March
  • Reading as much Anton Chekhov as I possibly can
  • Perform or produce a scripted piece of theater
  • Resume oil painting projects
  • Build some furniture from scratch
  • Continue to exercise, especially swimming
  • Visit more people
  • A photography project that includes getting to know people as part of the process
  • Camping, dancing lessons in some capacity
  • Launch a full-fledge Volunteering committee for the Austin Improv Community


Me, Myself, and I

Thursday, November 8th, 2012

It’s time for me to start being more selfish. I’ve said this for years but I’m ready to act on it. I won’t be pushed around or taken advantage of anymore. In 2011, my mantra was to stand up for myself. I was successful for the most part. But after years of letting guilt crush me, I’m ready to transcend it and take what I want from life. This may mean I have to be less nice & understanding. This may mean falling on my face, but I’m ready to find out.


Tuesday, April 24th, 2012

Photograph of a fork, dirty glass, and glass cleaner lying in a damp sink
Photograph of green dishes in a sink of soapy water

I feel like I do dishes all the time. I have not had a dishwasher in several years. I couldn’t think of a single photo of washing dishes, so I took a few.