Last night I realized that most of the stress I feel is brought on by myself. Hardly anyone ever complains about me getting things done. I’m rarely really behind on deadlines. Most people mean it when they say “do this whenever” or “when you have free time”. Yet, I can’t seem to let go and accept that there’s not enough time in the day to do everything that’s pending. The work will be there in the morning and there’s no point in thinking about it at night.
I think my biggest fear is that I will either feel lazy or someone else will think I’m lazy. So… when I realized this last night I immediately went to Hyde Park Bar & Grill, ordered a steak, did laundry, had a piece of cake, and went to bed. haha
This resonates in a way I didn’t know was possible. I have been there. Am still there sometimes. Well now that I’m unemployed, you’d think I’d have alll kinds of time to use up and get everything done! Instead, I tend to find more to do. Not all of it legit. Dang time, you just can’t win. BUT, if the battle is within oneself, that is another matter entirely.